afreeheart

i don’t know what to do anymore. Nothing, nothing, nothing.

I didn’t want to be an athlete who never made it. Who was good enough but just couldn’t make it. It hurts so much to see others who don’t love the sport as much as i do and have since i was eight and they have all these opportunities based on money or who they know. i don’t understand why. By some fate I was never given the chance. I don’t know why. Somehow I ended up here and not there. Three years after and i miss it so much. No matter what my major in college would have been, i wanted to played college softball so much. I worked so hard, everyday. I trained on my own, without anyone’s help. No excess of cash to pay for travel ball, expensive bats or shoes. No gym membership. I worked so hard and i put all my heart into it. I tried. I was a great player. Now i am nothing. No one would understand unless they have experienced what i have.

Two Rivers Park

Two rivers park.

I am not a well student.

My uncles old drum set.

Pcb, Florida. Gulf World. Sea lion.

Pcb, Florida. Gulf World. Dolphin show.

He’s shy. Pcb, Florida. Gulf world.